Growing up too fast

At this crossroad once again. 

When will this insanity pass? 

When will I ever find courage to conquer my fears?

I look at myself in the mirror. 

I'll be ok. I'll be fine. I will survive. 

This is the storm before that beautiful rainbow we dream about. 

Peace, will it come to me soon? 

I dream so often. 

I could run in my dreams. 

I could disappear. 

I could laugh and I was free. 

I could dance. 

I was me. 

Where am I now?